It's been a while since IWore my heart on my sleeve.I already stopped playing the game some time ago.I never realizedHow refreshing it wasTo deal with the unexpected and illogical.But the dream is over,The sun is almost up.Soon it is time to wake up and face reality.And here I am wishingFor the day to end soon,Hoping for a part 2 of the interrupted dream.- Posted using BlogPress from my iPod Touch

So this is how it feelsTo be pleasantly surprisedWhen you pulled me into your arms.So this is how it feelsTo forget everything elseAnd wishing that time will stand still.So this is how it feelsTo finally let you goBecause it is time to part ways.Awe.Bliss.Pain.And now,Dazed.

This is the year......when Murphy's law bites you in the ass....when all roads leading to your destination are blocked....when you want to give up, but failing is not an option.This is the year......when egos are crushed and selfish desires are curbed....when things you take for granted suddenly disappear forever....when your world falls apart, but you are not allowed to fall with it.But this is also the year......when you learn something new each day....when being lost means discovering something wonderful....when things go spectacularly wrong, and yet somehow it makes sense.This is the year of contradictionsAnd finding the proper balance.

Even in my dream last night, you are distant.I tried to come closer to you, but I can't.Consciousness came back as I reached out for you,Left me staring at the ceiling, feeling blue.That moment between dream and reality,Desperately called out for you to come to me.Seconds after the illusion faded out,Was wondering if you even heard me shout.I have always said that it does not matterWhat you think of me, I'll love you forever.But at that instant when you did not look back,I don't know how to put my life back on track.My subconscious said, "This is a reminder.You'll have to deal with this sooner or later."

I've known since time immemorialThat you never did like me."Why is that?" I wondered.But it's just you, isn't it?And yet we tolerate each otherFor reasons unfathomable.I'd like to think there's no needTo declare open war on each other.Frankly, I don't careWhat you say about me.But if you insult the ones I care about,Draw your sword and fight me!Great! Look at what you've done.My temper flared once more.Thank God we're far apartMust remind myself to wait, again.Karma will come to you eventually,That's all I can say at the moment.If not, then when I returnI swear I will set things right.

How is it possible?From afar, you are ableTo calm my troubled mind.Be my light so I may findThe way back to sanity,And see once more the beautyOf the path I chose to follow,And forget all the sorrow.My love, come back to me.I miss you already.

If you only knewWhat you’ll put me through,Would you have done things dif’rently?Would you run and hide,Or cast me aside?Would you ignore me completely?It is kind of weirdThat I’ve always fearedThat you’ll go away forever.I’m afraid to showHow I love you so.Scared of what will happen after.I finally triedTo say what’s inside,To confess my feelings before.That time you told meThat this cannot be.You love me as a friend, not more.Didn’t go as planned,But I understandWhy we couldn’t be together.Even though this heartHas been torn apart,I long for you more than ever.Forgive me if ICan’t let this love die.Guess I’ll stay this way forever.Crazy, you may say.It’s the only wayI can pull myself together.

Oh my, what is this?The air in ParisInspires me to writeVerses left and right.Going to hysterics,Screw the mathematics!I’ll just while away the timeMaybe thinking of a rhyme,Until I find…Bah, never mind.Just think of this as practice,Lest my English go amiss.

I wish I could doa time leap,To go back to where it all began,To see whether this momentcan be undone,To find out what happensif I chose the other path.I wish I could doa time leap,To go forward, see what will happen,To figure out if Ichose the right path,To skip all the bad thingsthat are happening to me.But alas,I’m stuck in the present.